17.0212-0830 Am I a masochist?
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Dear Marla,
It as been almost a year since I Came Out to the Hahns.
I've been trying to wear my latex as much as I can. The idea of *~100% enclosure, ~100% of the time *seems daunting. I've dreamed of living my life while in enclosed in rubber since I was a teenager. One of my most recurring fantasies is being locked into Total Enclosure for Life.
I once tried locking myself into my skinsuit for a few days. (Once I mailed the key to myself.) It was really nice at first but then it gradually became increasingly messy, itchy and uncomfortable. Eventually I began to look for ways to defeat the locking mechanism. I was tired of the whole thing and just wanted a shower and get some air on my skin! The mail man showed up on the third day with the key."
Lorraine asked, "Would you do it again?" Then she giggled and said, "Although I don't think I'd rely on the mail around here for anything like that."
"Ah, the very fact that the mail delivery is unpredictable makes it even more exciting. Just knowing that I might not be able to take something off for three or maybe even four days, makes me wet.
"Thanks. That sounds quite diabolical. What happens if something starts to hurt when you are locked in? I'm not sure I would be comfortable with the responsibility of holding your key. I think that could be very, eh, 'messy'," said Lorraine.
She suddenly had a quizzical look on her face. "I know you are Deep Rubberist. Does that also incolude being a masochist?"
I thought about that for a moment and then replied, "Yes, I guess I am.... sort of. It's weird. At times I somehow enjoy certain kinds of discomfort. As I removed the suit there was a part of my body which "pined" for it to remain. I relish the idea of being "incarcerated" in some sort of latex prison. There would be no escape until the postman delivered the letter to myself with key in '1-2 business days'. The idea of being imprisoned in a full-cover latex suit with heavy, steel cuffs and collar, a corset and lots of straps and padlocks just makes me wet thinking about it. Add some steel chastity stuff and a comfy gag, and I am in heaven, even if I'm also going through hell."
However, the idea of pain from "contact sports" such as whips, needles, hot wax, etc., simply does not appeal to me. In fact, these are usually a hard limit for me. However, where this becomes cloudy is that I also crave restraints or containment. For example, I love armbinders, straps, mummy bags, boxes, chastity belts and bondage as well as edging and forced orgasms. These can often cause aches and pains. Somehow, within reason, these discomforts are OK. They come with the territory. I don't want the aches and pains, but I also don't mind them as well. I guess it matters how I torture myself with delight.
I went on, "I read that LatexLadyII would take a bath with bath salts *twice* a day for one hour each. Putting her (cleaned) suit back on immediately after was simply not optional. So, theoretically, she was enclosed in latex 22 hours a day, for a whole year.
Apparently the *two* baths a day makes a big difference. If she ran over time there were "delightful" repercussions.
Hey! Just for fun...
I think it might be fun to present myself to the Hahns in a different "rubbermaid" costume for each day of the week.
Each one could have a different name like "Greta" or "Elizabeth". ;-)
Greta might be the goggle-eye gasmask character who appears on Tuesdays to do the messier tasks such as cleaning toilets, mopping floors, etc. In contrast, Elizabeth might on duty on Wednesdays and has one of the expenc
I've got some money saved up and can now afford to buy one or two decent femmasks. Generally speaking, the more the mask costs, the more realistic it will look. There are numerous cheap femmasks on the market with the "Manga-style" eyes painted on. Instead, I'm looking for femmasks which have "normal" size features, how realistic the eyes look, the precision of the sculpturing of the mouth, nose and eye sockets, etc. I've seen some which have a built-in gag.
I also have two different style gasmasks.